The true reason Ciaran resigned from [UFP]
Posted: Wed Oct 27, 2010 3:41 pm
I guess I owe you all an explanation as to why I really left UFP, after all serving 3 years and having it end on such bad terms, isn’t how I thought it would end and it’s not what I wanted.
And let it be known that I swear that all of the following is the truth.
Firstly I’ll start off by saying that, as you know I have spent 3 years in UFP, been on the forums almost every day and near every hour of every day too. I was more active when on leave status coming back days after retiring, and other similar events. I couldn’t get away from it. It was becoming my life and I had it set a higher priority than it should have been and didn’t have enough discipline to set it lower. My interest has hit ultimate lows at times but I’ve always found something to keep me interested and tried to play the odd game every now and again, even if I didn’t feel like posting a BR after it. In short I was plain addicted and couldn’t help myself to get off the forums for a few hours.
Back in mid august I was introduced to a girl by a good friend. She was my age, similar interests and in my friend’s eyes, we were meant to be. She made the intro and we hit it off from the start. From the first chat we had it was like she was the one and that we were going to live “happily ever after”, I suppose you could say.
Anyway at the end of august, a gang attacked her and she was stabbed to death. She knew that UFP was pretty much my life, after work, I did very little else but browse the forums, refresh every 2 mins, etc….one of her final wishes was for me to leave UFP and by extension – get out more.
I’ve left UFP and doing so, swore never to rejoin another clan for fear of this happening again.
I know I’m on msn every day and don’t seem to get out much but things are picking up in that department, very slowly.
I’ve left UFP and doing so, swore never to rejoin another clan for fear of this happening again.
I know I’m on msn every day and don’t seem to get out much but things are picking up in that department, very slowly.
I only told those I consider most trustworthy and who I felt understood me. I chose not to tell certain people because I would have thought they would not believe me. Even then I found it extremely hard to say why I left.
I miss being in UFP. I enjoyed the view from the top and I want its activity to improve, well at least in the legacy games, I couldn’t care less about STO.
The way in which I said things was probably inappropriate but PMs can be ignored, as I’ve found out and I have mentioned a couple of my ideas to certain members of UFP on how I think things could improve, from a former-insider now an observer point of view.
Let me also add that I never EVER made any threats to incite mutiny. I may not like certain people and have my own opinions about the leadership of the clan but, even if I wanted to, think about it logically, I could never make one a success. It would have been a waste of time. My intentions were all in the best interests of what I called home for 3 years, going to war on the forums and how everything’s escalated is not what I ever wanted to see happen.
The way in which I said things was probably inappropriate but PMs can be ignored, as I’ve found out and I have mentioned a couple of my ideas to certain members of UFP on how I think things could improve, from a former-insider now an observer point of view.
Let me also add that I never EVER made any threats to incite mutiny. I may not like certain people and have my own opinions about the leadership of the clan but, even if I wanted to, think about it logically, I could never make one a success. It would have been a waste of time. My intentions were all in the best interests of what I called home for 3 years, going to war on the forums and how everything’s escalated is not what I ever wanted to see happen.
That’s my explanation in full, I welcome any replies you have.